So here we are again, that time where I sit down and talk about some random stuff from my life with absolutely no real detail and only a few references, leading to you the reader to simply guess as to what I’m alluding to and what’s been going on. Well, I think I should go into a little more detail, so I’m going to break it down into sections for you and we’ll go on from there:

Kayleigh- For those of you who do not know, Kayleigh is probably the most wonderful person you’ll ever meet. I could talk about just the materialistic reasons she’s so awesome, listing all the totally cool things she’s bought me since moving here, but. . . fuck it, I’m going to:

• In September of last year, she surprised me by meeting me after college with a brand spanking new X-Box 360 ELITE, completely out of the blue.
• For said console she’s bought countless cool games for me, including Devil May Cry 4, GTA IV, and Hitman: Blood Money (I already had the last on PS2, but fuck it, 360 ftw).
• A couple of months ago my laptop broke due to a pin in the charging doohickey falling out, causing it to be unable to charge. She bought me a brand new one, which I am currently writing this out on.

The list is quite long, and includes many very sweet gifts, which in turn includes many things such as drawings and figures and stuff that she’s made herself for me, taking her time to create something for me to cherish.
Anyhow, I wasn’t just going to talk about material things.
I was thinking earlier how it’s lucky our relationship is as good as it is, particularly as I’m almost incapable of holding a decent relationship with anyone unless I’m miles from them and can talk to them over a computer. I think the key to our success is that we were friends for so long before we got together, so there was a solid foundation already to build upon, and made me think that maybe if we hadn’t been friends for so long before we wouldn’t be as close as we are, so I’m glad fate kept us apart for so long. But yes, it’s just nice to have one person I feel completely comfortable talking to about anything, who knows all of my deepest, darkest demons and accepts them, promising to be there regardless of what happens. A couple of weeks ago I was having a particularly hard time at home for one reason or another, and she stayed by me and supported me through it . . . the same cannot be said for another person I know, but that’s another story (by the way, if you knew half the shit I know you would have grown a pair and stuck up for me like a friend should. . . I’m sorry, I’m just “getting in a mood”, never mind me). So yes, I may get jealous in certain cases, and I’m still paranoid about stuff I probably shouldn’t, but I can’t help it, it’s easy to do when I have someone I feel this close to, and basically I’m just thankful to be with her.
There’s a lot more I could and probably should say, but I’m very tired. Sorry.
Love you Kayleigh.

Friends- The one thing I really get pissed off with is that I no longer have the internet to talk to the people I used to be able to consider friends, even though in some cases things were a little downhill before I left I still miss my group of friends. However, I still have some.
Recently, as in before Christmas, Claire got into contact with me and we’ve spoken a little since then. For those of you who have not had lessons in the class of Jamie history 101, Claire was one of the first people I met on this fair internet thingy, and was the co-creator of Family Values, for a time serving as co-manager under the name Mrs. Jonathan Davis. For various reasons I have no need to go into detail about we grew apart and eventually stopped talking for a while. Anyhow it was nice to catch up with someone I’d known for such a long time (you know me, I’m all about history). She’s going through a bit of a hard time at the moment so let’s hope things work out for her (not saying what’s wrong because it ain’t none a’ yo’ bidnis, biotches).
Also I e-mailed my sister La De Blah the other day, to which I got a reply, and that was nice as it’d really be a shame to lose a sister. I probably have more to say about friends but I can’t think of anything. . . Dutch is cool, I’m writing Caroline a letter. . . oh, I’m trying to make friends with Kayleigh’s friends after having a nice long chat with her and realising they actually like me, so that’ll be cool, seeing as I’ve only really made one friend since moving here thus far really.

I’m dizzy. Who cares?

College- College is going surprisingly well. I was told that in Media my coursework gained a B, in Film my coursework gained an A, and in English my coursework gained either an A or a B depending on where the grade boundary lies. So hopefully overall I’ll achieve an A for film and media, and a B in English, which is more than I expected to achieve in English, just look how I type. In Art I don’t think I’ll get quite so well, but it’s okay as I have to drop one subject for A2 and I didn’t particularly enjoy Art to begin with. Strange considering the next topic, but anyway . . . yeah.

Art- I’ve decided (a while ago) that I want to make a comic. And stories. I want to create lots of junk and make a sort of concept album, only instead of songs I want it to have lots of random things like pictures and photos and stories and poems and stuff, and maybe even a movie script (I had to write a script for coursework a while ago, I quite like it), I just thought it was a really cool idea. However I have no real idea for a storyline for it, but I’m working on it. Slowly.

Life- Life’s been okay, I’ve been working at the Saw Mill again as the tourist season’s coming in, and we might even get a real summer this year (woot, running around on the beach and melting!), so that’ll be more money in the bank, which at present I’m probably intending to spend on driving lessons, as I’ve decided it’d be cool to drive around and have a Stuntman Mike car:

Other than that I’ve not been doing much, just playing GTA IV really (I’ve completed it, but I just don’t want to stop playing, it’s totally boss). Oh, I saw Iron Man the other day, a freaking badass movie if ever there was one. Also I’m still waiting in anticipation for The Dark Knight, which I hope will be as awesome as it looks:

(click picture for trailer)

Other films I’m waiting for are the X-Files film (hells yeah, X-Files baby! m/) and the Incredible Hulk, which may sound like I’m being a homo, but it has Edward Norton in it, and everyone knows how cool Edward Norton is. Even Kayleigh, she doesn’t usually know people, but she knows Edward Norton. I’m sure there are more films but I can’t think right now.
Oh yeah, musicality wise, I’ve heard on the grape vine that ohGr are releasing a new album this year, rumoured to be called ‘Blurry Dotted I’s’, so I’ll totally be swooping that shit up, I loves me some ohGr. Also Skinny Puppy’s new album is out next year (I shamefully haven’t heard the latest one, but don’t blame me, I don’t have access to a decent music shop or the internet . . . someone hook a brother up perhaps?). The Cure’s new album is due out in September, which should be pretty awesome. Also NIN have released a new album via free download from their site, and HERE’S a link. If anyone’s interested, I have a link to get Saul William’s album, The Rise and Liberation of NiggyTardust! for free download . . . HERE. It’s awesome, Trent Reznor produced it.
Apparently the Smashing Pumpkins, whilst still making music, may not be releasing any more CD’s, which makes me a sad panda.
The drummer from Placebo left, but they’re apparently making a new album soon.
Twiggy’s back in Marilyn Manson.
I’m just rambling now.
What was I saying?

Life. Life is good, I've been thinking about it and I can honestly say that I'm really happy at this exact moment. I'm proud of what I've achieved since I've moved and wouldn't change a thing about it really.
I've also realised I'm actually quite confident about things, as in I feel I can do whatever I put my mind to, probably because of the fact I'm vain, but that's never a bad thing. I'm not confident about social situations but never mind.

May come back and edit/ add later, gotta go now.

So yeah, I had a post all planned out but decided it was crap and wanted to say something else since. . . this morning.

THE WEATHER!
A boring topic, I know.
So yeah, the weather's been kind of crazy since last summer, as it rained for most of it (and for my own selfish reasons I hope it does this year. I work in a pub which is only busy during tourist season, and if it's terrible weather no one will want to be touristing), and it's starting to get crazy again.
Yesterday it went as such:
Sunny
Rainy
Sunny
Sleety
Sunny
Rainy
GAILFORCEWINDY
The next step I'm predicting is the apocalypse.
But seriously, I woke up and, on the way to the bus, saw two huge trees blown over. Apparently pretty much everywhere is on flood warning, it's just crazy.
Know what I find funniest? The fact that AFTER summer everyone was all 'lets be environmentally friendly' when surely its evident that we've already done enough to fuck things up, so trying now won't do a whole lot.

My other little rocky turd of wisdom is that bus drivers are the whores of the road.
I don't understand why people are expected to thank them when they're getting off, I paid for the service, isn't that enough?

I'm bored, bye.

I present to you all a question: What is a journal?
Well, what I thought it was supposed to be is this; a collection of your innermost thoughts and feelings. However an internet journal is not one of these. For example, I think, a lot. I think more than I’ll ever say, because I don’t say much, but I don’t come bounding in to write out all my thoughts on here, do I? Well I used to, but that was just because I was a depressed little weirdo with too much time on my hands. But anyway, yes.
What is the point of internet journals then? To inform your friends on current events and such from your life? Probably not, because if your friends were interested in any of it they would have been told already, one would assume.
So the conclusion I came to was that it’s mainly just to ramble nonsensically for a while to whoever is bored enough to read it. In this case, that is you.
Now, on with the actual post.

Word has told me that opening intro’s sentence structure was soooo fragmented, lol.

Anyway.
A while ago, pretty much when I moved, I decided to take up the title of Sick and Twisted once more, and to do away with that nasty other guy, so I did. However I wasn’t really feeling it, if I’m totally honest.
You see, when I was ‘Sick and Twisted’, I used to be the random cool little freaky gimp that had funny hair and, yes I’ll admit, I used to have friends too. I’d be wrapped up in my own little world of interests, such as music and doddling, and films. But that wasn’t me last year. I tried to make my hair funky again, but I got so pissed with it that I had no hair for a good six months. I tried to have friends again, but that failed pretty good, although I’ll admit again, I have a few I could consider friends (here’s looking at you, Dutchie), and surprisingly a few are from back in the day.
Anyhow, the point I’m making is that I’m feeling it again, and it took one day to really put me back in my place. That day was when me and my lovely, gorgeous Kayleigh went to see KORN MOTHERFUCKERS.
Yes, such a moment was a sort of catalyst setting me back right where I belong. I don’t know if you, the reader, get feelings like this, but it’s sort of like you have a moment of realisation, that you are where you’re meant to be, and that you were right all along. Let me tell you a story.
So there we were, we were in que to go in to the place, and I was looking around at all the little emo goth things around us, and I was feeling more than a tad uncomfortable (that may just be due to the fact I’m not good with people. Crowds freak me out). So we went in, and it was Deathstars and Flyleaf supporting, and I was trying to get into it and stuff, and for a moment I just thought to myself “oh god, I don’t belong here, I’m not the ‘jumping around’ type”, and all was, yeah. Then they were setting up for Korn, and they brought out Jonathan Davis’ micstand, and a little tingle went down my spine. Then Korn came out, and I realised me not getting into it before had nothing to do with me not belonging, it was just that I didn’t like the support bands much, as I totally went off like a crazed mooonkay when Korn were playing. And it made me remember why I’d spent so many years being in love with them before, even though Head had left now, David probably has and Munky wasn’t there, it was still awesome. I was at the front, practically able to reach out and touch Jonathan Davis, my old idol, and it made me remember how I used to be, and how comfortable I was with myself back then, even though I sometimes looked like a spak and stuff.

So here we are. It’s about a month later, and I feel better about myself. I’m Sick and Twisted again, and it’s who I should have been all along.
But I suppose change helps you grow and realise who you are, right?

Anyway, laters, kids.

Post-written: It’s been my birthday, and I suppose I should add a few words about that; I’m starting to feel my age a bit, I started writing my own short autobiography before my birthday (not because of that, just a coincidence), and looking at my life. I have quite fond memories I realise, I didn’t have a bad childhood in comparison to how it could have been, given the situations I was in and such, and yeah, it made me realise how much the people in my life really meant to me, and also made me want Owen to visit more, because I remembered how much fun we had back in the day, and to be honest, it was awesome.
Anyhow, my birthday. I got a lovely cake and lovely presents from Kayleigh, which was lovely. I got DVD’s and DVD storage from my parents, which looks pretty damn snazzy in my room now I must say. And yeah, it was just a good birthday. Thanks to all who text me wishing me a happy one.
Recently I’ve started drawing again too. I’ve been trying to come up with tattoo designs, and also I’ve been (since today) thinking of making my own comic, with my own cool characters and stuff, I’ve recently been filled with ideas due to creative coursework for various classes.

I wrote this the other night, I'm just bored enough to post it now

Okay, yeah, forget that last post (which has mysteriously disappeared. . . *cough*), it was a good idea but ultimately flawed due to my laziness, busy-ness with college and such, and fact that I'm too darned busy watching 24. So far, season 4 is my favourite.

Anywho.

It's almost the end of the year, and I have to post something wonderfully interesting about my thoughts and feelings about the past year. However I have nothing prepared.

I have a question to pose you all:

WHY SO SERIOUS?!

^ Obvious best film of '08 right there. It. Looks. AWESOME.

Gu-bye for now.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

I had not planned to post again until I had my internet back, however it's incredibly difficult to get a phoneline connected due to the incompetence of BT, it looks like, so I'll be posting again via the vaguely useful but quite useless college computers, which seem to have every other worthwhile site blocked (including my beloved FV, which has a birthday in less than a week!).
Anywho, enough with this nonsense.

I'm not really sure where to start off on this post. I feel it's important to fill everyone in on what's been going on over the past almost-year. Well, everyone I haven't already kept filled in (the only people really filled in are Kayleight (duh), Dutch, Owen, and to a lesser extent Kate and Caroline). But I'm not sure where to start. I suppose it'd make sense to start chronologically. But I doubt I will.

First of all, location. I am now located in the lovely village of Berrynarbor, which is in North Devon. I also stayed briefly in Combe Martin, which is a whole five minutes or so away, but I think I prefer it here. We're settled in, I have all my crap thrown around to help with the comfortable-ness, and our neighbour's cat has decided it prefers us to it's owner, so it lives here. We have a nice big TV now and my ever-growing DVD collection is. . . Ever-growing.
After about three years of looking for a job in Aylesbury and never getting one I managed to get not one, but two here. I stayed in the first one for a month or so but decided to can it because. . . it was a bit gay really, pay was alright but hours were silly and I didn't like anyone there (the ones I liked left). Now I work in a pub, I like the people I work with and enjoy my job (even when there's nothing to do, it's boring but I'm getting paid to do nothing. Ker-ching).
I've gone back to college. I'm now studying Art, English, Media Studies and Film Studies. I like it most of the time, but haven't really made any friends. I've started liking to write again, probably because we're made to write so many essays, I'm getting into it now.
I've changed my so-called "style" a fair few times since being here. I had long-ish hair, then gave up on that, and now have SHORT hair. I mean short short. I had a liney beard thing, which a picture of may be posted in my photo gallery soon, maybe. But it's shaved off too. I got new glasses. I gave up on trying to look "interesting", because I'm out of that stage, and trying to just makes me look like a homo, and I prefer how I look now anyway.
What else can I inform you all on? Well, I've. . . had Owen come to visit once, and I've celebrated Christmas, new years, our anniversary, valentines, my birthday, Kayleighs birthday, and soon we'll be repeating the cycle once more, which I'm sure will leave me joyful but empty-pocketed. Also, to celebrate the end of summer I got totally rat-arsed with people from work, stumbling home at 5 in the morning, which was much fun.
I did have a much larger post planned once before, however that was on my old memory stick, which happened to be lost (or stolen by some no good mother. . . ).

What else can I say to you lot? I've met some total jackasses while here. Tyler immediately springs to mind. Because he's a worthless piece of shit.
I have an X-BOX 360 ELITE in my home! And Oblivion has been taking over my life for the past I-don't-know-how-long. It is awesome. So is Dead Rising.
Prison Break is still the best programme ever made (THANK YOU DUTCH). And 24 is occupying my viewingness at the moment.

And I'm out of stuff to say right now.
Notice the minimal amount of swearing as opposed to my old posts? Impressed?

Everyone join my group, Family Values, and post often, I need people to keep it alive in my absence. And if you’re a member already, act like it and post. And come visit me.

Happy Halloween.
Rock on.